word of the day: LAZY

Song: No Rain – Blind Melon
Quote: I’m not lazy. Now would my conjecture be more credible if I were standing? Perhaps, but we may never know. – Garfield

Alright, Metallica f’n rocked!!! We had great seats, we could see the entire stage… it was so f’n cool. They played some of my favorite songs… ones that weren’t released as videos… like The God That Failed.

So, let’s backtrack a little here. The boy and I went to Shocktoberfest on Thursday. Two haunted houses and a haunted hayride. One of the haunted houses was set up like a prison. Now, I don’t scare really easily and I wasn’t really scared here, but I did jump a few times. The best part about it was the attention to detail. There was so much stuff to see, skeletons everywhere, all kinds of props. Very cool.

Friday was of course Metallica, and like I said, that was awesome.

I got home from the concert a 2 am. Took a shower and promptly fell asleep. I had been up since 6 am Friday morning and I must have been more tired than I thought, because I didn’t even hear my phone when the boy text messaged me at 5 am Saturday morning. (He had just gotten out of work, 3rd shift.) I ended up sleeping until 11:30 which was nice because I haven’t slept that late in I don’t know how long. I shuffled around the house for a wee bit and then headed off to see the boy. We went shopping, I got two really nice sweaters and he got new jeans. We went back to his house to see who wanted to go to the Country Junction’s Fright night. Once again it was just the boy and I. Oh well, we still had fun. It was no where near as fun as Shocktoberfest, but it was still kinda cool. After country junction we went’ to see Crystal Roxx. Then we went back to his place for some shut eye.

This morning (11 am) we woke up, showered and went to Qmart. The Quakertown Market. We walked around for a while, ate, and went back to his house. We spent the rest of the day laying around watching TV. It was so nice doing nothing. It was like my body realized that it had an extra day off and it suddenly decided that it didn’t want to do a damn thing. I feel so lazy right now and I’m not going to do anything at all.

METALLICA

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procrastinating cucumber

Song: Creeps – Emily’s Toybox
Quote: I’m a cucumber, I’m a cucumber. Please don’t take me to the pickle farm.

Once again I am procrastinating. I’m sitting here supposedly doing my homework, but oh the things I can find that keep me from doing it. Like my blog. All summer I barely wrote in it. Now all of a sudden I’m finding reasons to blog. (today’s reason: I really felt the need to put “I’m a cucumber, I’m a cucumber. Please don’t take me to the pickle farm.” in here) I’m almost done with my homework. Really. I just have one more question on my last take home quiz and a few sketches to make. Besides it’s only midnight. I have plenty of time.

COUNTDOWN TO METALLICA: 43 HOURS

Shocktoberfest tomorrow. I think. It depends on what the boy wants to do and how much money he has. (see blog about the truck; sep 13th)
I realized tonight that it is almost five months since we’ve been together. How’d that happen? It seems like I just met him.

COUNTDOWN TO SEEING HAWKE: APX 64 HOURS

Alright, alright. I’m going to go finish my damn homework.

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Song: If you could only see – Tonic
Quote: A high priestess of witchcraft, a jewish rabbi and a minister walk into a bar. The bartender says, “what is this, some kind of a joke?”

After much grumbling, yelling and creative cursing my car is fixed. Who knew you could string curse words together to make an entire sentence. Apparently my car engine is really tiny and not made for someone whose arms and hands are as big as the boys to work on. He also changed my oil.

Next Wednesday he is going on vacation with his family. He’ll be gone for five days. He invited me to go, but I would miss too many classes and too much work. I really can’t afford either. Luckily my friend Hawke will be here and I will hopefully be distracted enough not to miss him too much. Never thought that I would love someone so much that the thought of not seeing them for ten days makes my heart weep.

I have three take home tests due this week, one of them due tomorrow. I would like to get two of them done tonight. I guess I should get started on that.

adjustable wrenches and haunted libraries

Song: Somebody Told Me – The Killers
Quote: Working with a baby had it’s problems. But then I tried directing chickens. – Jim Henson

So, the car died on Thursday after my class. Luckily the boy was near… and awake and came to my rescue. He popped the hood, checked it out and decided my starter wasn’t working. He banged on it with a adjustable wrench and shazam… it started. I drove it to his place and then he and I hoped in the truck and headed to the auto parts store. Unfortunately the part won’t be in until Monday, so the boy sent me home with my very own adjustable wrench and the newly gained knowledge of what to hit. Hopefully the part comes in on Monday.
Tomorrow night, instead of going to the haunted woods with the boy and a large group of friends, I am working. Granted, it’s the haunted library tour and it’s usually fun, but I would have still enjoyed going to the woods.
Next Friday at this very moment I will be screaming my head off in New Jersey. Why will I be screaming you ask? Well I will be smack dab in the middle of a METALLICA concert. Yes, I said METALLICA!!!! Ha Ha… my dream of seeing them in concert is coming true. And the opening band is Godsmack… seriously people, how could this get any better? Well let me tell you. The very next day my best friend is coming to visit from Tennessee. I have not seen her in SIX years… yes Hawke it’s been SIX years.
What a great week it will be. Woo Hooo

Nerd Computer

I think I got the nerd version of Microsoft Word. The spell check recognizes the words Jedi and Gollum.

I love a parade!

Song: Fall to Pieces – Velvet Revolver
Quote: “What is love? Sometimes it’s just letting yourself be who and what you are, and letting the person you’re supposed to love be who and what he is, too.” - Incubus Dreams, Laurel K. Hamilton

So… it was just a moment of weakness. I had heard he was around again and the temptation to go see him was strong. But, thanks to the wisdom of Hawke’s one simple question “who would you rather be with” and my very quick response of “the boy” clarity was once again mine.

ANYWAY… On to more interesting news. Last night I was in a Halloween Parade. Actually in it. A few of the boy’s friends play in a band together and they asked the boy if they could use his truck and trailer to make a float for the parade. The boy drove the truck while the band played on the trailer. I sat in the truck bed with two other girls while a few other friends walked behind the trailer. We were all in costume (I was a witch of course) and we were throwing candy to the kids. It was so much fun. We had so much candy and we ran out before the end of the parade. So, near the end, I was just waving to the kids and the cute guys. LOL Couldn’t resist. Of course I had a lot of older men winking and waving at me… Yikes.

Then the boy and I went back to his house and I actually got a decent night sleep. It’s funny a month ago I blogged about how I couldn’t sleep with his arms around me. Now when I’m in his bed I can’t fall asleep without them. It’s things like that and all the small kisses, touches and gestures of affection that make me wonder why I even think about the past at all.

every now and then

I heard a song on the radio just yesterday
The same one you always asked me to play
And when the song was over
I wished they’d played it again
Yes I do think about you every now and then
I love my life and I’d never trade
Between what you and me had and the life I’ve made
He's here and He’s real, but you were too
And every once in awhile I think about you
I’ve been laying here all night listening to the rain
Talking to my heart trying to explain
Why sometimes I catch myself
Wondering what might have been
Yes I do think about you every now and then
Every now and then

Every year on my birthday when I would blow out the candles, every year for Christmas, and every time I wished on a star I would ask for the same thing. I wanted someone to be in love with; someone who would love me.

Today is my 27th birthday. I have nothing left to wish for.

So instead I am thankful to who ever put the boy in my life.
I am thankful for my friendship with Hawke… closer than any blood sister could be
Thankful for the love of my mother and brother
Thankful for my friends… who make life interesting

Thankful for everyday that I’ve had and will have on this earth.