weekly rambling

Song: Running Blind – Godsmack
Quote: I thought if I showed you I could fly, wouldn’t need anyone by my side, now I’m falling backward, with broken wings I know I’ll die

I got a rash last week; all over my face and neck. It ended right at the neckline of my shirt, so obviously something airborne got me. It’s gone, only lasted two days, but freaked me out.

Got a new computer program at the library. Now when we go to check out the books half of the barcodes on the books and patron cards don’t work and we have to manually put them into the system. Shouldn’t take to long… it’s only 40,000 books and who knows how many patrons.

I spent apx. 15 hours on homework last week, 18 hours in class, 35 hours at work, 33 hours of sleep and about 4 to 5 hours traveling back and forth to school. In theory that leaves me with 62 hours all to myself. I spent about 20 hours with the boy. So that leaves 42 hours. Where the hell did they go? I don’t remember not doing anything for long periods of time… so what did I do with all those hours? I want them back.

I need a vacation, someplace without computers or people.

Guess I should be doing my homework for tomorrow. Blah! I don’t feel like doing anymore homework.

I’ve got way too many Jon BonJovi song lyrics floating through my head. Here are some great lines:

Well my eyes have seen the horror of the coming of the flood I've driven deep the thorny crown into the soul of someone's son Still I'll look you in the eye 'cause I've believed in things I've thought And I'll die without regret for the wars I have fought.
- Miracle

Here’s what it is that I want writtenOn the gravestone where I'll lie Tell them it's just my bones that died there So save the tears they'll cry My spirit is still riding somewhere's in this night And it's these three words that come to me As I kiss this world good bye
- Never Say Die

No I don't claim to be a wiseman, a poet or a saint I'm just another man who's searching for a better way But my heart beats loud as thunder For the things that I believe Sometimes I wanna run for cover Sometimes I want to scream
- Bang a Drum

Rock America

Song: I Remember You – Skid Row
Quote: “There is much to learn, and you have no time.” – The Dark Crystal

For some odd reason, I downloaded the video for Skid Row’s “I remember you”. I don’t know why I did it, but just seeing the video sent me into an 80’s hair band revival. In the 80’s I wasn’t listening to Madonna or New Kids, I was listening to Skid Row, Poison, Motley Crue, Warrant and Whitesnake. Along with so many others of that genre. And now, here I sit reminiscing about that time period. Guys with long hair… oh what a weakness of mine. (as long as it’s clean and combed). Oh did I have a huge crush on Vince Neil.

“Here I go again”, “Up all night”, “Ballad of Jane”, “Once bitten twice shy”; they don’t make songs like that anymore. For those of you reading along, you know you’re a hair band geek if you know who sang “Easy Come, Easy Go” or “Edge of a Broken Heart”. (I know you know, Hawke). Ahhhh… the 80’s. Forever may they live on.
Shhhhh… if you listen quietly you can hear the hiss of an Aqua-net can somewhere in the distance.

On a side note… I have so much homework to do. Ugh, and I’m really not liking 3DS MAX. It’s hard to work with and way too complicated. If things keep going this way I may have to rethink my career goals. Just give me a damn paintbrush and a canvas please.

*** You are truly sick if you know who sang the song in my title ***

snoochie boochies

Movie: Jersey Girl
Song: American Girl – Tom Petty
Quote: May you ever find your way back to the Inn of the Last Home. - Dragonlance News #42 - Sept. 13, 2004

I saw Jersey Girl tonight and surprisingly I really liked it. When I first saw the previews I did NOT want to see this Bennifer tale. However I tried to have faith in the great Kevin Smith. The usual cast of Kevin Smith actors was there… Ben Affleck, Matt Damon and the one guy whose name I can’t remember now. lol And of course George Carlin. I was however missing Jay and Silent Bob. The movie was quite funny. Had me, the boy and the boys dad laughing out loud. I highly recommend this movie.

So Far Away

Song: Wicked Game – Chris Isaac
Quote: ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open, and I don’t feel like I am strong enough, ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome, and I don’t feel right when you’re gone away. – Broken, by Seether and Amy Lee

I hate his truck… I absolutely hate it. When I first met him, he drove a beat up Chevy lumina that he paid $100 for. And that was more than ok with me… I didn’t care what kind of car he drove. He worked 40 hours a week and I saw him all the time. Then he bought a $40,000 truck. He started working all these overtime hours to pay for it and I only got to see him every other day. Now he’s falling behind on his bills and he’s getting a second job. Now instead of seeing him every other day I’ll only get to see him, if I’m lucky, once or twice a week.
When my brother was looking to buy a new car, he did the same thing. He got a second part time job in addition to his full time job. And his ex girlfriend resented all the time he was spending away from her, just so that he could buy a car. And I really don’t want to be like that little bitch. (excuse the venom there, the bitch broke his heart) But I miss him so much when I don’t see him for a day. In my head I know that this isn’t so bad, I have tons of homework to do now that I’m back at school and this will give me time to do it, but my heart, my stupid little heart can’t imagine not seeing him as much as I have been.
Three months ago I couldn’t imagine feeling this way about anybody. I was independent and did whatever I felt like doing. But now here I am with my heart attached to someone and I don’t know what to do about it.